Updating my last update:
Ok enough of this roller coaster ride. Surgery is going to reevaluate with xrays in 6 hours. The head critical care doctor really doesn't think she will be going to surgery today and she feels we need to try to begin intubation. So I maybe holding my sweet angel baby by this evening. An answer to prayers
The night was long and hard. She had more versed and fentanyl than ever. The say she has ICU psychosis, ugh. 4 nights of no sleep, although she can sleep daytime. We were hoping for extubation this morning but with a chest xray it seems she will be heading back to surgery. They are thinking somewhere she has a perforation. I am quite sure I will never be given more than I can handle, but with lack of sleep my emotions make me wonder. All I want is to hold her and let her know I how much she is loved!