Monday, March 31, 2008

Clowns of God

I know what are you thinking.
You need a sign.
What better one could I give
than to make this little one whole and new?
I could do it; but I will not.
I am the Lord and not a conjurer.
I gave this mite a gift I denied to all of you
To you she looks imperfect
but to me she is flawless,
like the bud that dies unopened,
or the fledglings
that fall from the nest to be devoured by ants.
She never offended me,
as all of you have done.
She never perverted the work of My Father hands.
She is necessary to you.
She will evoke the kindness that will prompt you to
gratitude for own good fortune....more.....
she will remind you every day that I am who I am,
that My ways are not yours,
and the smallest dust mite whirled in darkest
space does not fall out of my hand.
I have chosen you.
you have not chosen me.
this little one is my sign to you.


Anonymous said...

I could not find in my own words why Annabel has touch my heart so deeply. I could not explain why each day the first thing I do when I get home is check and see how her day is going. I look at her sweet little face, into her soulful eyes, and feel not pity but peace. This poem tells it all, she's truly God's messenger, reminding us to use the treasures of good health, family, and friends to give him glory. Her "eternal innocence" is to be envied, to be "treasured" by so many, is to be blessed. I worried when Lauren first started babysitting for Annabel, I know how attached she was from the first moment she meet Annabel. I didn't want my "baby" to get hurt. I was also in awe of how her adopted family could center their whole life around a little girl with so many health issues. I didn't understand how they could take the heartache of maybe losing her at any moment. But now I realize the biggest sorrow would not be to know and love "Miss Annabel"! So, now I get Annabel's message and truly "TREASURE HER"
Janell Ford

Anonymous said...

That poem is beautiful, I know that you won't mind me sharing it with others who may be strengthened by it. You see, Annabel, you have touched soo many lives and you are only 3 years old. I only hope to have touched half as many people as you at the end of my life. God Bless You just as you are. With love, Lindsay C.

Jessica said...

That was wonderful!

Anonymous said...

Just perfect! :)
Love, Lisa

Anonymous said...

Many years ago, I used to become frustrated. I did not understand why God would send a child here to earth with severe disabilities, shorten lifespans, and daily challanges.
Then my special needs son came into my life with all the answers.

When God created human life, he did so in his image; loving, accepting, generous, kind and patient. Our children or God's wish for the human race. Uneffected by Satan's trials. They remain ever loving, patient and kind. They are not just a gift to those God entrust them to here on earth. I think they are also a gift he grants to himself. A reminder of what he wanted all along. His own likeness here on earth.

You honor God with the care and love you provide to Annabel. Even more remarkable is that you have rasied Tara to do the same. I love the three of you dearly. God Bless You.

With great admiration

Kim ( said...

I am so glad that Annabel is doing so well! What a miracle girl she is. You and your family are a blessing and I am praising God that Annabel is beating all the odds! When I tell someone about her they ask "does she have FULL trisomy" and I proudly say yes she does. It's not that I am happy that she has t-18 but especially since I lost Mary Grace and it seems that it's such a given that they will not survive for long if at all, it's just a way to say "in your face God's in control here!"
Annabel is such a blessing and she is blessed to have you!
With love,

Anonymous said...

How funny that I have that quote on one of Morgan's websites, too. I don't mean funny haha, I mean funny unusual. It isn't a quote that is often passed around, but it is one of my favorites. I guess great minds think alike.

Hope Annabel is feeling better with each passing day. She is a precious little girl.

Holly & Morgan

Anonymous said...

Dear Cathy
I look forward drinking my coffie and reading about Annabel each morning. She has touch our family in so many ways. I have always tried to teach my kids about other kids with specal needs, and they have learned a lot. They will ask me if I know something new about Annabel. My daughter (Emily) went to church last Wed. and on her own asked for prayers for her, she told the others kids all about her. I was so proud. Please give her hugs and kisses fron us. Hope to see her soon.
Love SueSue

Laurie said...


I don't know if you wrote this personally or not, but it is so beautiful and true. Annabel is His little sign to you and to me too. I am ashamed to admit I used to be afraid around special needs babies because I did not know how to act or what to say. I am so thankful for hearts like yours and so many others that have shown me the way out of my awkwardness. I love all children and I now have a better knowledge to show love to all. Annabel IS a treasure of God and a true miracle of His Grace. Have a blessed day.

Laurie in Ca.

Anonymous said...

I love the poem and I shared it along with the music with my 17 year old daughter whom just lost her baby and it helped her and myself with our grief. We thank you for sharing your little Annabel with us, May God Keep Blessing you and your Family.